This month we’ve been seeing a lot of one of my favorite characters in the Gospel, and that is Saint Peter. Just three weeks ago, the Apostles were out in a boat, and Jesus came to them on the water. Saint Peter asked our Lord to command him to come to him on the water, and he did, and we all know how that went. Then last week, Jesus was quizzing the Apostles about who people said that he was. Peter was the one who spoke up and professed that Jesus was the Christ, the coming Anointed One, and Jesus proclaimed Peter the Rock on which he would build the Church.
And here we are today, just a couple of verses later in Matthew’s Gospel, and Peter steps in it yet again. Because Peter was still clinging to the old notions of what the Messiah would be, he could not fathom that Jesus would have to suffer and die. And so Jesus chastises him for thinking not as God does, but as people do. It’s a mistake we all make time and again in our spiritual lives.
Peter’s faith journey was like that: up one minute, and down the next. One minute he’s walking on water, the next he’s drowning; one minute he speaks eloquently of his Lord, and the next he’s the voice of temptation. So maybe it seems like Saint Peter, flawed as he was, was an inappropriate choice to be the pillar of the Church, the first of the Popes. But our Lord never makes any mistakes. He chooses who he chooses for a reason, and I think that’s what we have to spend some time looking at today.
If Peter was unqualified for the position to which he was called – and he clearly was – then we have to expect to be unqualified for the roles to which we have been called. Parents often feel that when they start to raise their first child. Priests feel that every time they witness something incredible – which is almost all the time. We are all unqualified, but God sees more in us, he sees our heart, he sees who he created us to be, and he won’t rest until we’ve fulfilled that potential.
If Peter made some mistakes along his journey of faith and discipleship – and he clearly did – then we have to expect to make mistakes in our own faith journey. One minute we’ll have a glimpse of God and we’ll feel like we could never let him down, then the next minute we’ll fall into sin, maybe a sin we’ve been struggling with for so long, and we’ll feel like God couldn’t love us. But he loved Peter, and he loves us. He pulled Saint Peter out of the stormy waves, and he will reach out and pull us out of our own storms of failure, as often as we cry out.
The one thing you can’t fault Saint Peter for is his courage. Eleven other guys stayed in the boat, but Peter wanted to be where our Lord was: out on the water. Eleven other guys kept their mouth shut when Jesus asked who they said he was, but Peter did his best to make a profession of faith. His life wasn’t perfect, his discipleship wasn’t perfect, his faith had a long way to go, but he knew that he couldn’t leave our Lord forever. Even when he blows it in the hours before Jesus died and denies our Lord three times, he accepts our Lord’s forgiveness and fulfills the role Jesus gave him in last week’s Gospel.
Saint Peter’s story kept evolving, and ours isn’t done yet either. Our Lord loved Saint Peter and he loves us too. And that’s all it takes for great things to happen.